From the beginning of time there have been regrets. Imagine Eve, sitting alone and feeling so much defeat. Would her creator who once walked and talked with her ever forgive her and return to that relationship or was it forever lost? Adam,
the worst part was, he was right. đ Would he ever be able to forgive her? I mean, she couldn't forgive herself so why would he forgive her?
In our world today, we
walk with the weights sin has brought.... the tears fall hard, the cry of why plays out over and over again. Feeling lost and defeated, as though we have failed at so much. If I had of listened more, said less, been better, done more. Why would I be so misunderstood
or why did I make such huge mistakes......
These kind of memories, I would like to say are isolated incidents, that most of my life has been free from misunderstandings
and difficulties.... but I am not here to right humor today. We all know life isn't simple. We all know that life will always carry waves of trouble on what should other wise be a calm sea.
Troubles brought on by our own actions, thats hard to accept isn't it? We can look in the mirror and see our reflection, we can feel what the heart feels, but for others, so hard to see the heart.... wishing others could
will not change it.... they only see what you see in the mirror, the actions, the situations, but reflection of the heart takes a greater love.
The ripple effects of
actions, sometimes our own, and sometimes not by our own choices.... it doesn't matter, both leave you broken and in need of love and forgiveness. Real forgiveness never brings it back up... never sees your issues first... but love begins to see through it
all, right to the heart ... we see the heart of those we care about.... whether it be broken or whether it is true and loving.... we see the heart of those we become close to. Those we truly love. We hurt when they hurt, we know when they are in need of a
forgiving kind of love.
I am not Eve.... but it started there.... and it hasn't stopped, nor will it.... we will live a life of regrets, and learn how to walk through
them.
Life has a way of laying aside your ability to trust, and we continue to walk in our heavily burden belief that we made mistakes that we will forever carry as
'who we are'
In a world that doesn’t forgive easily, it’s even hard to trust you have been forgiven. There are some things in life that do seem unforgivable.
Either we cannot forgive others or we cannot forgive ourselves. W don’t believe God would forgive us, so we hid in the shadows of our own torment or in the bondage of our own blame. How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide
your face from me? How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day? Psalms 13: 1-2
I am still learning to trust even after I
have ‘let go’….. Trusting that you have, can and always will forgive me of my inevitable short comings…. The details of my hurts are not as significant as the fact we have them…. Guilt and shame become tangled in crippling
bitterness and an unwillingness to grove others or accept God’s forgiveness of us. And w wonder if life will ever look different, be better. Some times we learn as Eve and Adam did, ….. But in the end, that hard lesson can lead to a place of trust.
When life doesn’t go the way we’d planned because our our own foolish or selfish choices, can we stop fearing the future and trust that God still knows how to work things for our good? When guilt and hurts make us feel life will never be the same…
we have a God who says, I have blotted out your transgressions like a cloud and your sins like a mist, return to me, for I have redeemed you. Isa 44: 22. We do not need a do over when we have a God who redeems what we have lost. And when we trust Him, every
stolen things becomes a restored thing in His capable, loving hands. howing us that none of us is always right. Sometimes that makes us run from the truth. Sometimes that makes us blame someone else. It causes us to see others imperfections under microscopes
never intended for our use.
The wrongs you have faced, the day you took the taste of the fruit that was forbidden, and it become a blame issue... it was the serpents
fault right? The blame was easier than trusting a forgiving process .... Do we trust God enough to be honest with Him regarding our own fears and short comings? Is the weight of it all so heavy that you just